MAKING THE CHOICE
Hello. Sar here, of the Promise Me series. I’m here today to talk about Broken Promise, Book #2 of the sereis, and the choice I made within its pages to be with Theo instead of Danial. For those of you who are not familiar with the series, let me add that Theo is a werecougar, and Danial is a vampire. They’ve worked together and been best friends for the last ten years, while Danial oversaw the state of New York and also worked with Theo at Solutions, Inc., Danial’s problem solving company that does everything from corporate espionage to settling scores outside the law. Sound complex? I certainly found it so, when I first met Danial around Halloween. I never thought helping save his life would lead to so many changes in my own. But I’d only seen the supernatural in fiction and film. The real thing was far more seductive. I knew Danial was dangerous, that being with him would put me in danger. I never expected our relationship to move so fast, or that it would end the way it did.
First off, I didn’t want to break up with Danial. I just wanted some time to come to terms with the lies he’d told me. Yes, him being a vampire was part of it, but it wasn’t that I couldn’t accept that he was going to live forever and I’m going to die one day. What upset me was he used that difference between us as his basis for his lies, as if he had no other choice. He had another option: to tell me the truth, and let us decide as a couple if a baby was something we wanted right now. Instead, he took the easier option of hiding his real plans.
Finding out he’d taken up with my hated rival Angelica still pisses me off. Sorry for the swearing, but I really hated her from the first, and I’m sure the feeling was mutual. She was ecstatic that night she surprised me with the information Danial and she were lovers, probably hoping I’d go all to pieces. I know she’s dead—maybe the one good thing Devlin ever did in his immortal life—but it doesn’t make me feel any better.
I also never meant to get involved with Theo. Looking back, I can see that the chemistry was always there, like when I removed his splinter, or the time he was poisoned and I helped him get to an antidote in time. But I’d never have made a move if he hadn’t made one first, and we hadn’t dreamed together. That was also an accident. Terian had dosed me with a spell, hoping that I’d reveal I desired him the way he desired me. Theo arrived after Terian had left, we got into a fight, and he started to change to his animal form. In the book, I said I kissed him to stop the change. But I’m not sure that was the truth. Maybe even then the spell was making me reveal my true feelings about how I cared about Theo. It certainly was the catalyst that brought us together.
Confronting Danial about my relationship with Theo was not high on my agenda. I knew he would be livid, even if he had moved on. I never expected things to go where they did, or that Danial would deliberately hurt me, no matter how angry he was. Yet looking back, all the signs were there that he could be violent. I’m glad that he’s getting help with that, just sad that it had to go that far before he saw he had a problem.
Theo is a wonderful lover, partner, and friend. He hides nothing from me, helps me, and his loyalty is never in question. I can’t believe it took me this long to see that he was the better man. I’m sure we’ll have our share of problems, but we’ll face them together.
Blurb: Shocked at Danial’s betrayal, Sarelle returns to her old home to consider her options. Yet even as Sar plans a reconciliation with Danial, Terian arrives, confessing his desire. When Theo witnesses Terian and Sar kiss, he angrily confronts Sar, leading to startling consequences. Will Sar’s heart choose Danial, Terian,…or Theo?
“Why didn’t you tell me you wanted children?” I asked searchingly.
“I already told you—”
“Sure, that’s part of it, Danial, but I want to know the rest of it. You didn’t let me know you were even thinking about this, or that it was even possible. Tell me the reason why.”
“Why?” Danial said exasperatedly. “I already told you: out of fear.”
“This was more than you being afraid I might want a baby and you wouldn’t be able to give me one. Tell me the truth.”
Danial sat down and put his head in his hands, all the fight leaving him in one long breath. “I was afraid I’d be able to give you one and you wouldn’t want one,” he murmured.
Our eyes met. The despair in his eyes mirrored my own.
“I was afraid you’d act like you did when I asked you to stay with me the first time you visited. I thought you’d be happy when I offered you a home here, but you reacted as if I’d told you that you had to give up your dogs or something drastic like that.”
“You were asking me to give up something significant,” I replied coolly. “My life, Danial. My life as it was up until I met you. I had a home of my own—”
“I offered you the world,” Danial said bitterly. “You hemmed and hawed, making it seem as if you were giving up a rich life to live in squalor with me, when the exact opposite was true.”
“Life isn’t all about being rich,” I said angrily. “I had to do what was right for me.”
“And I did what was right for me,” Danial shot back. “I know you, Sar. You leap forward for something in the heat of the moment and in the next second, you draw yourself back into your shell. What is this, if not your attempt to run at the first sign of trouble in our relationship?”
“You lied to me, and tried to get me pregnant. Worse, now you’re admitting it was to trap me. What kind of relationship is that?”
“That’s not it at all,” Danial said angrily. “I just didn’t want to be put off by you. I do want a child, our child. I would want it no matter what. We have a chance, Sar. I don’t want to lose it.”
“We have time, Danial.”
His words tore out of him. “No, we don’t, my love. Do you know how short ten years seems to me? Twenty years? It goes by so quickly, Sar. I don’t want to lose you. I can’t make you vampire, can’t keep you with me against the flow of time. I don’t think you’d agree anyway, even if I wanted that. Devlin would have to do it, and then he’d have power over you.” He stepped toward me “I would never give him that, Sar, never.”
I backed away. “I don’t want to be vampire. I told you that from the first.”
“I don’t want you to be, either. But our child, he or she would be part vampire. They would live a long life, maybe even have my immortality, if what the legends say is true. They would be part of you and part of me. I could hold onto you, onto what we had—”
The world I’d built with him was rocking on its foundations. The grey boxes that Danial kept, containing all his mementos and memories from his long immortal life. Pictures and tokens weren’t enough for him to remember us. He was looking to make a living memory, something that wouldn’t fit in a box. We weren’t the same; I was going to die and he was going to live forever. In that split second, I understood that difference more completely than I ever had before.
“—I can’t lose you, Sar.”
“Danial, it’s over between us,” I said tearfully. “We’re over.”
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